a friggin hot september

it should be cold these days. it's september, the months of -ber coming, and it should really be cold. I should be curling like a fetus at night from the cold, and grabbing my blanket or wearing socks and jacket at night.

oh BUT NOOO.

it's so hot that sometimes I have to fix the fan at myself so it'd be cooler. in the morning, the sun will be up oh-so-high and the clouds will be barely visible since the sky's so blue.

and it's so HOT.

the weather's fooling all of us; we think it'd be sunny all day, but in the afternoon, the rain will come barging down without an invitation. What the hell, they don't have the right to just ruin the weather like that! wait, what am I saying? my head frigging aches.

yes, the weather here is confused. I bet it has identity crisis. it won't decide if it's gay or lesbian. it's hard to choose, I bet. sometimes it would be raining on campus, but when I head home, there would be no rain, the sky's so blue and when I look up, the clouds are divided. One part is dark, another is light. No, I'm not referring to Daisuke in DNAngel and his identity crisis - whether he's in puberty or a budding kiddo.

Wow. maybe there's two dimensions in this place. Maybe I have yet to find a black hole so then I'd be transferred to an alternate world, or maybe in the Demon Kingdom where the good-looking guys of Kyo Kara Maoh are. That's cool. That way I could escape from the dreadful thesis.

And I wonder what I'm doing right now? I'm typing here, fooling around, trying to fix my iPod when I'm supposed to type my frigging thesis - and wait, I think I'm still not starting data analysis, so what the hell am I going to type? And then in my data, I have a hole - like a hole on the back of your pants that seemed like someone just pulled out your tail like in Dragon Ball when Piccolo pulled out Goku's tail? Yeah, something like that.

Anyway there's a hole since the frigging library doesn't have that one issue of a newspaper that I NEEEED. Oh my God, I need it, so why, oh why, is that the only issue that is missing? Is the Demon King after me, after all (OHNOOHNOMAJORNANAIMITATION)? And to top it all off, the deadline of this frigging thesis is on the September 13th, the 13th!!!!!

...good thing it isn't friday on the 13th of september.

oh my god oh my god I am panicking.

wait, wasn't I just talking about the weather?

....

yes, it's so hot. and maybe all these anxiety is making it hotter. doesn't make sense? try it. imagine one day you were just surfing the net in your PC and then your PC just suddenly BEEEEEEP SHUT DOWN and then when you open it, there's a message that tells you all your files are wiped out!

oh what will you doooo!!! I know you're gonna sweat like mad and then think oh what am I gonna do what am I gonna do!

another scenario which is so familiar to me: you're listening to your 40gb iPod, enjoying the voice of Yuichi Ikusawa (you know you like hiiiim) and then suddenly, he sings 'a-a-a-a-a-a-afu-fu-fu-fu-fu' like a japanese villain on crack and then all your 5,000 songs won't play!!!

oh what will you doooo!!! I know you're gonna sweat like mad and then think oh what am I gonna do what am I gonna do!



I told you, I'm talking about the weather! so then, you will perspire like mad, even though you felt so cold earlier and you don't know why? it's the most uncomfortable position you will be in, because oooooh you don't know what to do.


ah, I don't know what to do too.

I just wanna sing White Stripes' song, 'I don't know what to do with myself' over and over again, and forget it all....


the weather here is so bad.

oh sanity...


(I just kept typing, what did I write again? :O)