Monday, August 28, 2006

how to tell someone to GO AWAY?

I met this person four or five years ago.

and now he's haunting my yahoomail inbox. it's like a ghost coming back to life to haunt you and pester you. and when you read his words, you know it's him - GODDAMN it's him and you feel so nervous because whatthefuck - it's him.

The mere thought of him makes my skin crawl. My heart beats so hard it feels it'll burst not because of anything positive - but because I want to get rid of him and FAST.

It's not right to disappear five years ago and then come around again asking to relive those days "we've had". But it's not right. It's not just RIGHT!

I've continued living my life - evolved like Pikachu to Raichu or Daisuke's Digimons (wait whatthefuckamIsayinghere...) and evolved like a real person. I evolved as a person who can finally think for herself and not depend on others. I've evolved to a more mature person - a far cry from five years ago.

And now the past is haunting me. I want that person to go away. NOW. but because I'm afraid he might hack into my PC and destroy the remaining fragments of my joy - I can't tell him how. I wanted to ignore his e-mails and proceed with my life but I'm still afraid. I'm angry and I'm afraid.

How do you tell someone to go away???